Words of Love and Loss

Hey Mom, Sooooo many things to unpack here. I am going to try to get through all of it, so be patient. Funny, where are you going to go? Morbid, I know. Moving on. First, Mother's day was a few weeks ago. I never know how to act, what to do, where to go, etc. Hubs usually takes the girls to Grandma's and we all end up there for dinner. When you were here, Dad would bring you. This time it was just him. This was the first one without you. I felt like people were watc

Hey Mom, A few months after you left us one of my older neighbors passed away. I had just gotten all the girls off to school and saw a few different vehicles and a police car out side their house. I went inside and sat where I could see what was going on outside. Tapping away at my computer, I heard sirens in the distance. Soon those sirens went silent and an ambulance pulled up. I watched as the EMT's go inside. They were in there for a while. During that time I texte

Hey mom. You know what sucks? Love. Love sucks. Today is your 47th wedding anniversary. 47 years of "for better, for worse, for richer or poorer, in sickness and in health". Sickness. I used to think that meant a cold, flu or the worst one I could come up with was cancer. Nope. I never, ever thought it would be Alzheimers. Watching the person you pledged those vows to disappear right in front of you. Then having to care for that person every minute of every day. Watching them